If you really knew me

Maybe some of you think you know me.

Maybe some of you think you know who I really am.

but you don't know the truth that I hide behind this mask, 

behind this giant scam.

Maybe some of you think I'm skinny 

but maybe you don't know that I was annorexic.

Maybe you don't know that I struggle with my weight,

and that my life becomes hectic. 

Maybe you think I'm happy and hyper.

but maybe you don't know my thoughts are suicidal,

because if you really knew me you would know that I've attempted.

If you really knew me you would know that I spent five days at the side of my brothers hospital bed.

All because he had the same thoughts inside his head. 

If you really knew me you would know that life hurts.

but we need to learn to change our minds like converts.

You would know that I've had a lot of time to debate,

To sit here and ponder if life is really worth the hate.

If you really knew me you would know that I've had my fair share of heart ache,

but that I've chosen to live this life. 

And learn to live with a smile I sometimes have to fake.

But if you really knew me you would know that I try.

Because this life is short and soon we all die.

Make Life Beautiful

I don't know why people don't like tattoos, I think they're gorgeous.

Somebody that I used to know

I remember we used to walk to school together every day.
We'd get there an hour early just so we could play.
You and I would sit on the monkey bars and just scream and shout,
We didn't care when everyone went inside, we would stay out.
Sometimes I would go to class an hour late,
Just to extend the memories you and I would create.
I remember always playing truth or dare,
I'd tell you I liked you and you would never care.

I remember when we would hang out at the happy tree,
And spend hours just laughing, you and me.
I remember as kids we would play cops and robbers,
But you tradded that in to date someones daughters.

I remember when you started hanging out with new friends,
That's okay because every good story has to come to an end.
I remember a lot when it comes to you and I,
But I don't exactly remember where things started going awry.
From hanging out every second of every day,
To awkward glances in the hall to looking away.

I don't know why it hurts this much,
But I didn't do a lot when we started to lose touch.
I had my friends and you seemed to have yours,
Now all you are is my neighbor, shut behind closed doors.
I don't want it to be like this, but I don't know how to make a change,
Our relationship just became ever so strange.

I don't even remember when you became my friend,
You're in all my ealiest memories, but now they just seem to blend.
I see you out the window from time to time,
Wishing you would say hi to me like it wasn't a crime.

I remember all the love I had for you,
And now I wish you weren't just somebody that I once knew.

Johnny Depp :)

All the movies Johnny Depp has been in.. [X] Means I've seen it.

[X]Dark Shadows 

[X]21 Jump Street

The Rum Diary

[X]Pirates of the Carribean:On Stranger Tides

[X]Rango

[X]The Tourist

[X]Alice In Wonderland

[X]Public Enemies

[X]The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus

[X]Sweeny Todd

[X]Pirates of the Carribean:At Worlds End

[X]Pirates of the Carribean:Dead Mans Chest

[X]Corpse Bride

[X]Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

The Libertine

[X]Finding Neverland

[X]...And They Lived Happily Ever After

[X]Secret Window

Once Upon A Time In Mexico

[X]Pirates of the Carribean:The Curse of the Black Pearl

From Hell

[X]Blow

[X]Chocolat

Before Night Falls

The Man Who Cried

Sleepy Hollow

The Astronauts Wife

The Ninth Gate

[X]Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

The Brave

Donnie Brasco

Nick of Time

Dead Man

[X]Don Juan DeMarco

[X]Ed Wood

[X]What's Eating Gilbert Grape

[X]Benny and Joon

Arizona Dream

Freddy's Dead:The Final Nightmare

[X]Edward Scissorhands

Cry-Baby

Hotel

Platoon

Slow Burn

Private Resort

A Nightmare on Elm Street

How to make a giant chalkboard! :)

Step 1: Materials

There isn't much required.

48 x 48 piece of 5/8" plywood
48 x 48 sheet of 24 ga. sheet metal
Liquid Nails
Chalkboard paint
Base board
Wood screws
Finish Nails

Step 2: Plywood base

Then trim the board to 45 X 45 so that there will be a 1.5" border of exposed plywood on the edge. You then use liquid nails to secure the sheet metal to the plywood. You don't need sheet metal, this just makes the chalk board magnetic. 

Step 3: Poof! Chalkboard.

After the liquid nails set you paint the metal with some Glidden chalkboard paint from the hardware store.  This paint is the most expensive part of the project.  It is about $15.00 per pint.  It is important that you follow the drying and curing instructions on the can.  If you try to rush the paint it wont give you the nice smooth surface you need.  Also, you should use a dense foam roller rather than a brush.

Can being hipster be mainstream?

Too Beautiful

What kind of man lays his hands on the women he loves?
Calls he angel, but shows no remorse in her blood
He covers her body in bruises and scars
You don't understand just how beautiful you are

You are too beautiful
Your heart wants something more
Those shades of blue on that face of yours
Hides that smile that beats in your chest

When he's done with her beating
He just stands aside
Wipes the sweat from his brow
And yells over her cries
"You don't know what I've been through!"
He yells and he says
"You don't know what I've done for you!"
And hits her again

You are too beautiful
Your heart wants something more
Those shades of blue on that face of yours
Hides that smile that beats in your chest

She stands in the mirror
She looks less alive
She lifts up her shirt to see she has five
Branded fingers on her side
She's feeling it all now
But she doesn't cry
She doesn't cry

You are too beautiful
Your heart wants something more
Those shades of blue on that face of yours
Hides that smile that beats in your chest

Black out

She Became Lost

She made me a promise that she just couldn't keep,
I remember the time she called me mid sleep.
She needed someone to talk to,
but just talking wouldn't do.
We thought she would be here forever,
imagining what happened next was a never..

We got the call that they found a body,
I couldn't help it.. I broke down badly.
I wouldn't eat or sleep for weeks,
I heard her everytime the floor boards in my house creeked.

She was too young, she didn't get to grow old,
because she was always stuck in her dream-world.
This one was just too unfair,
you never knew what would happen next..
I became so unaware.
Unaware of her needs, unaware of her thoughts.
I was too caught up trying to survive myself that she became lost.

She became... Lost.

I wish I would have paid attention.
I wish I would have taken action.
I saw the warning signs,
but was too caught up in mine.
I needed help, but she needed it more.
All she needed was someone to adore.. her.

Her self and her eyes would gleem in the light,
She needed someone to tell her that everything was all right.
When I got the call that cold winter night,
I knew she was gone and she'd never be in my sight.

I miss her laugh and her big teeth smile.
I miss when we could sit her for a very long while,
and sing songs that we knew eased the pain.
I miss that I'll never see her beautiful eyes again.


I wish I would have paid attention.
I wish I would have taken action.
I saw the warning signs,
but was too caught up in mine.
I needed help, but she needed it more.
All she needed was someone to adore.. her.

Now I sit here alone as I write you these words,
to remember that night and the thoughts that occured.
And remember all the people that you keep close,
remember to tell them you love them before deathblows.
You never know when its their time to go,
so put away your own pride and your problems.
and tell them you love them before all thats left is their.. items.

Do You Feel Cold and Lost in Desparation?