If you really knew me

Maybe some of you think you know me.

Maybe some of you think you know who I really am.

but you don't know the truth that I hide behind this mask, 

behind this giant scam.

Maybe some of you think I'm skinny 

but maybe you don't know that I was annorexic.

Maybe you don't know that I struggle with my weight,

and that my life becomes hectic. 

Maybe you think I'm happy and hyper.

but maybe you don't know my thoughts are suicidal,

because if you really knew me you would know that I've attempted.

If you really knew me you would know that I spent five days at the side of my brothers hospital bed.

All because he had the same thoughts inside his head. 

If you really knew me you would know that life hurts.

but we need to learn to change our minds like converts.

You would know that I've had a lot of time to debate,

To sit here and ponder if life is really worth the hate.

If you really knew me you would know that I've had my fair share of heart ache,

but that I've chosen to live this life. 

And learn to live with a smile I sometimes have to fake.

But if you really knew me you would know that I try.

Because this life is short and soon we all die.